am i really in rong?

been scolded by my parents just now...they scolded me tat i din take good care of my sisters...din managed to make tt house neat and tidy...are not responsible for wad i have done and din portray a good example to my sisters....and when my sis is being retained for another year....i was tt cause of it as i din teach her....

ok...yes...i may not take good care of my sisters...i admited tat i treated my friends better than my own siblings...i admitted tat i din keep the house tidy[tat's y tt house ALWAYS in the mess..oh well] i din show a good example for my sisters...yes..i admitted to all...y? cox i dun think nor fit to become one...i...i'm just a bad example and tt worst elder sister to my younger sisters....but...i dun agree tat i was tt cause of my sister tat she got retained...why does she got retained...why? it's because she din want to work hard enough... when PSLE is on...we din see her study...we wanted to teach her...bt...teaching her....is real a hard chore...nt because i think is troublesome...NO...realli..u need to have a lot of patience...realli need..sadly...i m a impatient person...i gave up once she said she noe bt i noe back at her head..she realli dunno...i reali duno wad she is thinkin at times...she looked so in a daze...cant really figured out wad she is thinking...wad are her thoughts...she just keep quiet...i just duno why...how i wish tt four of us are just normal people...how i really wish....maybe there will tt day when she can finalli noe how to communicate with all of us....i m sure that day will always come....
i wanted to keep my mum happie and so is my father...i hope one day...they will be proud of mi...bt...sadly as said above...i m a impatient person...i rush things out...keep on facing tt com...i too oso think myself ish a failure...bt..i cant...i feel weird without usin a com for less than 10 mins...maybe i should thought out a timeplan...sort things out....i really must help myself as i noe no one will help mi if i dun.....