Moody First, Happy Next!

was experiencing yet another bipolar day.

was feeling quite down cause i duno what really happened to my database, no matter how many times i tried, it can never be called via the data sql source from microsoft visual basics.

it's just seems a fruitless attempt just by doing it all over again. Im downright frustrated and tired of repeating the same thing. There came just a slight moment where i just wanna give up everything and just stone-ed watching the monitor. I suddenly feel so dumb and stupid against VB...oh wait...I just become an idiot once it comes to VB praticals!

i just cannot do it.

too bad, im aint as brainy and of a smart material.....this hellish-like days...probably will just go over soon and no doubt i will get a terrible score while self-bashing ownself stupidity at one corner.

And then G was asking me how to do for the game. I was hurt...very hurt. Ever since that very day of the presentation, i kept shunning people's questions towards the presentation.

Yet they just kept coming to me no matter how deep my desire is to shun them.

It was like a fresh wound, still bleeding, yet people can question me when they duno what they were doing was like putting more salt into my already-bleeding wound.

I know it's all my fault....yet...i couldnt help but to feel hurt.

HELL YEAH I KNOW IM THAT WEAK.

i typically ignored what G asked about the game. when da-jie asked me if i can do it....even though i know i couldnt do it...but till now, u cant really expect me to say i duno how to do right? so yea, it's a lie if i tell you i can.

ARGH. it's a stupid idea, but i did thought of dropping everything and change a new dipolma group. silly, isnt it?
but hah, the second i came up of this idea, at the same second i dropped it as well...way too stupid for me to do this. Aint worth my effort and time to do this.

and indeed it is. For i managed to do some research as what da-jie has suggested. I found a nice tutorial on how to make java games and im realised there's finally some light and i can now prove to that teacher I CAN DO IT.

If u think i cant do it...IM SO GONNA PROVE YOU WRONG. i see whether u will frown your eyes in doubt or what till then, we shall see.

and i finally found Mop Girl's subs and it's in chinese! mwahaha....from now till then, Im very pleased with the way the chinese fansub groups translate as well as their stunning fast speed to distribute the torrents and all...so yea...kudos to them and now i can finally enjoy watching Mop Girl at ease without watching the raws...BANZAI!

and now this fangirl is now high on sugar levels! XD