backstab, or was it?

i think i did a very unforgivable thing today. i tried to repent, however i cant seek a right answer by doing so.

am i right?

or was i in a total wrong?

during our last semester project, according to our resources[lol], we get to know that a certain person in our own group actually took 3 hours to search for just one image whilst venturing other of her own sites.

ultimately, when we are having our lab session for this project subject but even i myself seen with my own eyes that she is surfing those unrelated-to-our-project websites, thus this confirmed our doubts.

i was involved in the debate of whether to include them in for our next semester project, i was surprised the feedback i received despite i swore with my own life that i entirely kept mum out of this sensitive topic. They knew about it all along.


for me, i had never encounter such a awkward situation like this before, without them, i wouldnt find myself to be bothered with all these, i rather have myself vomit more blood cause i need to repeat what i said before earlier again and again to her, then to do what i actually did today.

as long as the freaking project gets over and done with, i care little for the grade, but cared a lot for the completion of the work, that's me.

looks to me today, is sure a hard wake-up knock on the head for me.
i think i done the cruel-ist thing for the first time in my entire life.

we decided to omit her off from the list, she knew it too, judging how near she was away from us, she overheard our conversation, you can sense her sudden agitation, she kept asking the same question again, however i chose to ignore her pleas as well. the face that i never forget, the face wanting to seek for an answer. and yet we are unable to tell her the true reason behind it.

you cant expect me to say "ehh, cause no slackers in our group, kthxbye" right?
and i guess she knew it as well, and that day onwards, we went our ways.

i felt im being engulfed by a huge tsunami of guilt at that very moment, i really had no idea what can i tell her so as to minimize the mental impact in her , i guess, probably forging ignorance would be the best way out.